Slowing Way Down (writing circle 7/30)

What I really want to write about is slowing down. Slowing down is something that is on my mind more and more each day that I wake up lately. It's actually the exact polar opposite of how I was waking up feeling a few months ago at home. Then I would wake up and immediately list in my head the things that I had to get done that day. The things I wanted to get through or get off my plate is how I used to think about it all. People who were close to me would tell me I needed to slow down, and consciously I would agree with them, but I simply couldn't match the feeling with the intention. Now, each day that I wake up I feel like I want to become slower and slower. I feel myself drawn to those things that purposely make me go slow. Especially the things that are uncomfortably slow. Those feel the best these days. As I look around my bedroom in the morning I can feel a shift happening and I do less and less. I can feel the pull of not filling my days with places to be or people to meet. I feel that as I allow myself to be drawn to those practices and ways of being that really make me go very slow something about my drive and go-go-go style will simply fall away. Feels like a melting. As if these qualities would melt into something new. I realize someone said something really accurate yesterday when they reminded me, those qualities of analyzing, deciding, getting things done are always going to be there. You've strengthened that part of yourself so much it will always be there to go back to. It's the slowing down and going deep within yourself that really needs to be cultivated and then you'll be able to blend the two together, it's like alchemy.